Emotionally charged.

What a wasted day. Didn't learn anything new in church, except the common troubles. Being angry with people, which makes me even angrier with myself. Feeling highly unworthy of socialising because I'm angry and ugly.

Even now, I'm so mad I make no apologies for whatever I might have to apologise for. Hey, it was a lack of specific communication; deal with it. I don't do crazy (the fun way); deal with it.

Rawr!! So mad!

Such a self-conscious, inward-looking post. Exactly the kind of stuff I'm mad at others for. Ah, the inner conflicts of the human mind/soul/whatever.

OH hey, maayybbbe it's the hormones. Likely. Pfft, women.

Making sense with nonsense

A tea party with the theme of the Mad Hatter from Alice in Wonderland? Sounds good to me, because I love the story. I've got the book and I love watching the 1999 film with Miranda Richardson, as the Queen, having a blast screaming "Off with his head!!!" Oh, did I mention that the book was almost given away and never to return like many of our books, but I 'thickened' my skin and got it back? Rawr.

One of my favourites where the Mad Hatter puts out the question: "Why is a raven like a writing desk?"

and after some time

'Have you guessed the riddle yet?' the Hatter said, turning to Alice again.

'No, I give it up,' Alice replied: 'what's the answer?'

'I haven't the slightest idea,' said the Hatter.

Recollections: Human relations, and then some.

As far as I can remember, we learnt one day that we (humans) are somewhat related to monkeys, mosquitos, and rice. Oh, spinach too.  

I also remember laughing about how "MonHum" (very loosely, the term for the Human-Monkey relation; or Monkey-Human relation) sounded so Cantonese. Ngor hai mon hum.

Cheers.

Should I...?

You know you've gotten into the humdrum of corporate work, when you type an email to friends, and you hesitate like forever before clicking 'send', thinking and considering if it was typed appropriately or inappropriately, if it should be sent or not, if it was proper or improper, if some things should be rephrased (and you rephrased them), if you should ask someone first, if ... ...

Yeah.

FFT: Are formalities biblical?

One thing's for sure, they're a huge pain in the a-, er, backside.

Peace

When people around you are away due to their individual circumstances, you can't help putting yourself in a position of self-pity. That's human nature. In order to make sense of things, we constantly try to identify similarities, identify patterns. And so we think everybody's leaving me!!!

But I am a follower of Christ. Thus, I have joy and victory over things that seem miserable. Because I have hope in Christ, not just in the 'eternal life' sense, but in everything else in life, no matter how big or small. Phew! In the past I would have let myself sink into melancholy and listen to sad music and think about how heartbreaking everything is.
Now, I might go there but then I'll stop myself. Or rather, the Holy Spirit stops me, reminds me of who I am, snap me out of useless fantasies, and focus on Christ. We've got to realise that there is no separation of anything in our lives from God. This life with God, is life itself. No thing has nothing to do with God. (Oh, was that a really smart phrase or what!!!)

So in this time when loved ones are away, I will do the only thing I can do. Pray and trust in the Heavenly Father, for their lives and for mine.

Jesus said "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27